sick as sick can be

music moves me even when i feel like there's nothing left in me to be moved. i feel drained . . . except for the lake of phlegm that is residing inside of me. im definitely not drained of that, although i would very much like to be.

but of energy, motivation and desire i am drained. it takes all of my being to walk from my room to the bathroom. i hope this is just like a flu or something. pray it's nothing serious.

i really should be asleep but . . . im restless, i suppose. my body is throbbing and i ache everywhere. plus, when i sleep, i cant breathe through my nose, and its scary. i can, however, hear myself wheezing though. im seriously going to sue that 7am walk/jog class. thats what did me over. truly.

my feet are freezing but the rest of me is burning up. and i blacked out this morning in the bathroom. that was an experience, to be sure. i cant remember if i watched White Christmas before or after that happened, but i definitely watched it this morning when i couldnt sleep.

im just whining on here. i really dont think anyone reads this. and if they do...oh well. im sick of being sick. im sick of throwing up and feeling sluggish. maybe i have mono. i dont know. all i know is that its christmas break and i dont have to put any energy towards anything. yay.

this was a pointless entry.