mentholated head drops

do you ever have those moments where you wish SO BAD to fast forward into the future? that moment is happening r i g h t n o w. and i'm not even talking about far away future - i'm talking 2 days away. i'm talking i wish it was wednesday at 10am right now, because that would mean i'd be done with juries, finals and projects and all i would have left to do is go to graduation, and party like it's 1999 (i was 14 years old that year. a sophomore in high school. i didn't even know how to spell party.)

my roommate - God bless her, really - is singing through her jury pieces right now. it's 1am. She sounds amazing, i love her voice and she's going to do great. but it's a little difficult to try and sleep. so i'm here sitting on the floor in the living room biding my time until i can catch some serious Z's.

the only reason why i would be worried at all about the future is because i'm afraid sometimes that my expectations won't be met. i know, that's so generic-sounding, but how else can i say it? i'm worried (not really) that i'll keep saying "i can't wait to graduate" "i'm so ready to be done!" and all those things people say during finals week, but when finals have passed and everyone is on break and i'm in my room alone for the next two years...will i miss this at all? i know there are certain things i DEFINITELY will not miss. I've learned a lot from those experiences, and those lessons i hold dear because they were hard-earned, but I know i will miss my friends. My friendship circle may be small - but it's closely knit and not easily loosened. I know this sounds dumb as can be, but I'm going to miss the caf and all of its dynamics. I'll miss my people-watching sessions each day, learning from everyone else's mistakes, and learning, truly, What Not to Wear.