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Well . . . the past couple of days have proven interesting. i have had loads and bushels and satchels and bundles of thoughts cross, land, set up camp and linger around my mind for quite some time. one of the most prominent is the idea of self-expression. or rather, simply expression by itself. how is it accomplished, and through what medium? If i experience something in my life that I believe needs to be shared with someone else, do i communicate it with a paintbrush, a chord progression, a stanza, a sentence . . . ? Which will portray the exact emotions i felt and/or the same picture i perceived at the moment i first experienced them?

Last night i was able to be a member and attend the Church of Fantasmic. Basically, I worked last night at disney and one of the Fantasmic leads is this big black guy, and at the end of our shift, during debriefing, he held his own little service of the Church of Fantasmic - preaching and "amens" and one girl actually fell on the ground. it was all in jest, i assure you. highly offensive and somehow highly hilarious all at the same time. and even though it was indeed funny . . . there was no way i could donate anything to the . . . church.

anyways . . . back to the whole self-expression idea. i think one way this whole idea of expression first came upon was through a song by Frou Frou. One line from the song "The Dumbing Down of Love" struck me deep. it is the following:

Music is worthless
unless you can make
a complete stranger
break down
and cry.

i think that is so beautiful. maybe a little narrow-minded, but i think the point she makes is so valuable. so i think i would love to make it my own point to put that much ... whatever it's called ... into each and every moment of my songs. well . . . at least i'll try my best.

anyways, i'm still awake right now at 12:18am, eating watermelon and watching Project Runway, one of my favorite summer shows. I'm not a big TV buff in general, but this summer i kind of got hooked. i enjoy the following:

it's been a while since i've watched Angels in the Outfield. I used to love that movie.