Friday, February 15, 2008

burdened return

i am finally back in "sunny" california. new york was incredible and amazing and i can't wait to go back, but for now . . . it's nice to be home. it's nice not to have to walk everywhere in 10 degree weather. it's nice.

a lot has been traipsing through my mind since i boarded American Airlines 9 and a half days ago. i can't pinpoint why i feel burdened but there are a few possible reasons. weakness. silence. complacency.

i've decided to be an artist - the pen and paper kind. i bought a new sketchbook yesterday and i'm excited to fill it. i'm also excited about possibly writing some chapter books that may, in fact, be published in the not-so-distant future.

all in all - the past week or so has been enlightening. i've learned things about myself, about the world, about purpose and about art.

forgive me if this isn't direct. i feel ambiguous today.

1 comment:

lauren anderson said...

I know what you are saying. I wish I could say it gets better, but it gets worse before it gets better.
So, I recommend the book that helped me through this difficult time. I will not, however be held responsible for what happens to your life when you begin to read it. Take caution, you will change...and that is a beautiful thing.
Soul Making, by Alan Jones.

There will be a better day...promise, Janelle.