unkempt

the past 4 weeks and 1 day have been nothing short of odd.
i quit my job yesterday and it was liberating.
i rearranged my room today and i feel new.
life is really sweet right now, even with the burdens.
i have so many conflicting dreams.
i'm nervous to start a career.
i feel under-qualified for everything.
my eating habits were bad before, but there are ten times worse these days.
typically around 3 or 4 i realize i haven't eaten all day, and then i feast on whatever i set my eyes on.
and then i get sick.
i watch too many movies and stay up too late.
and then i get sicker.
and the cycle repeates itself day after day.
LA Fitness is calling out to me, yet i have dismissed it's noble cry.
i am extremely nervous for my senior recital.
i honestly have no idea how i will get through it.
i constantly want to sleep but i feel like doing so will waste time.
so i sit with my eyes open instead and still accomplish nothing.
i do, however, have a job interview on monday.
i wish i could escape time.
this is where i am right now.